I heart TOP

I heart TOP

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

my first love vs GRATITUDE

wah...it has been a long time I haven't updated my blog...hurmm...yeah today I just feel like writing something...do u guys still remember your first love? I don't know why today I feel like talking about it...don't worry I'm not married yet thus, i didn't feel guilty talking about it..I had someone years back...he was my first love! we fell in love too early and broke up too early...we were too young back then..so that's why...I loved him..yeah I did!! then, after we broke up...I pulled up all my strength to contact him again and i guess..we had quite a good made up...well that's what i thought...actually NO...he did not love me anymore..that guy had someone that he love and that wasn't me ANYMORE. I thought I had a second chance to atone my mistake..for broke up with him..yeah I thought i had that chance,,..but No...I was happy during the 'made up' time and I guess we might had a second chance to be back together again..yeah...I was just getting ahead off myself..People say I am a lucky person..I guess maybe because I did pray a lot..My prayers..."Please give me guidance if he's not for me, please take him away from me and please make me the strongest person ever, Allah.." yeah I guess I asked that prayers...I found a blog that showed me proved me he was in a good relationship with a girl...ahhahah I guess i was a good stalker...then, I checked his FB through my friend's FB and found that he was getting married to the blogger girl......He was just playing around with me i guess...during the made up...

i guess it had already 3 years...of his marriage.this year..that guy...I wished him 'CONGRATULATIONS' first..but then, I thought why did I? I wrote to him the harshest words ever...yeah for a Muslim girl to cursed people with BASTARD, JERK, PIG.....hahhahahah not funny..isn't it? the day that I found about the news I was scared I couldn't hate him, loathe him...I was scaredddddddddddddd..so scaredddddddddddd.... so that if ....if.... I ...I....cursed him with that harshest words my absurd feeling towards him will stop!! END...I was afraid back then, what if I went crazy like... 

"I still love u, H, Do not marry her!!" or I went to his house to stop the marriage like in the drama..or what if that happened? Otokke?

what if I went crazy like that and said "what about it? in this world there is no love that cannot be" I was so afraid!!! so that, I thought if I cursed him with that harshest words....that will stop me doing crazy things like that! at least! because I also thought if I happened to give in, or tried to grab his hands again..for the last time...that words will stop me at least!!!

I used to miss him....sometimes..however there's no way to miss someone's husband, right????..against all odds,  this made me realize how strong I am!!! and how I feel so gratitude of what had happened...I guess, Allah heard my prayers.!!!

''if he's not right for me please send him away...."

He isn't the one for me! He isn't a good match for me!! Yeah.... :D


that's why I always hope women should be strong!!! I can't stand with a weak woman...do not make your life miserable just because a man!! Life is full of magic.... My life is good!! I  put him away the day that he was married to someone....and now, I might not forgot everything about him...but I guess....

 He is just somebody that I used to know........that's all!!!!! nothing more or less

and I did say sorry to him....... because I wanna get rid of everything and of course moved on... :D

My life......is good....when u feel gratitude that's when u know what happiness means... I have someone that I like now...i am not sure whether this is love or not but one thing that i am sure..I guess his love will make me strong...I'm gonna borrow his love for this lonely journey of mine.....

like u know...... People say PhD is a very lonely journey...But, I will keep fighting!!! because that's me!!!


x.o.x.o
tnkk_mirJHDKi

Saturday, November 3, 2012

The Journal of Mine-Big Bang Alive Galaxy Tour 2012-Malaysia Part 2

-----Short intermission-----
Well, our boys also need to drink something. Didn’t they?

The ‘not so big’ screen made an introduction----echo sound of--- I…I..need…..need….a…a… biggest…of ….thing….from….Big…Bang… if I was not mistaken. At first I thought they were gonna sing Monster since they put a greyscale short video. It was like in the Monster PV. But, no!! Most VIP in the stadium has lightened their blue LED. So u can tell what song’s next.  The verse in this song used to be my favourite for weeks after it was released ‘I’m singing my bluesssssssssssssssssssss’… wow!! the stadium was like a blue sea!! I guess the mission was successful! VIP rocks!!!!! And VIPs sang along the song with them! If u guys watched the video that some of fellow VIPs have recorded; U guys can hear how loud VIPs were singing together this song with the boys the fact that it was in an outdoor stadium. Who doesn’t love the song btw!! And hey, GD was wearing his skirt again….Ohhhhhhh he was so cute!! A fashion freak like him, didn’t care what others would think about him. I shouted his name just this once when he did his verse Gateun haneul dareun got neowana wiheomhanikka…... I can’t help myself. 

During this performance, I like seeing other members did the dancing while the other was singing. Very nice. 

TOP? Do u guys even have to ask? He was so handsomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! I guess maybe because he was wearing glasses and some extra accessories like his big necklace and top of that his red skinny jeans. It just reminded me of his old days!! Young and fresh!!! The guy that I fell in love with! O.M.G. No worries, of course I did shout his name. That wasn’t me if I didn’t. hahhahahaha Why does TOP is so handsome and charming???????????? Can someone tell me???? His charming and handsome face is priceless!! It’s beyond my imagination!! His beatbox skill was nut (in a good way). If I want to say I wanna have his babies is that too much????? 

Do u guys like love song? Aahhahahah

han yeojaga meoreojyeoga namjaneun norae bureujiman nunmuri naneungeol ibyeoriran

Tabi, could u please not being hot and sexy? The opening of the song with Tabi’s sexy voice just make the song is all I wanted to hear that night!!! Ok maybe I was being bias again to say that and exaggerating a little. But, seriously!! Bingu TOP was so charming! I was clueless for a while. I was wondering why I kept singing ‘I hate this love song I hate this love song I hate this love song I hate this love song I hate this love song I hate this love song I hate this love song I hate this love song’ when Tabi just make my heart race. It was because of GD’s sweet voice. He kept saying the phrase,/. I like the dance of this song ooh hoo nan ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh hoo and GD was doing all the dances part until the very end. He was so soft/ stable and really enjoying the show. I think he has practiced quite a lot of yoga before. Ahahha oh Captain!!! With his manly skirt.. Can u imagine that? Oh, Tabi!!! Seeing your awkward/ strange moves or we supposedly call it dance was all sexy and lascivious in my eyes. Dun worry TOP if u dun know how to dance; neither do I. We are even. Ahahahhaa. I shouted tee-o-pee just only once. Ohooooo. And Bae do u even have to say this verse i sarang noraega sirheo dasin an bureuri neoreul tteoolliji anke ijeul su itge passionately?? It just makes me wanna hug Bae this time for his nice, incredible deep-voiced!! 

Next was…..

I’ve never been a fan of ‘Monster’ up until I met my friend’s younger brother who is 7 years old who like the song so much and memorized the whole lyric. Cool, huh? There was one day, I met him and he kept singing the song. Then, after that, I became one of the fan! This is another song that using TOP’s voice in the beginning of the song. Oh I recognized his voice instantly!! I screamed so hard!!!! Shouted tee-o-pee, then GD….hahhahaha

[T.O.P]
Oraen-maniya mot bon sa-i geudaen eol-ku-ri chowa boyeo Yeppeojyeot-da neon hangsang nae nunen wonrae kowah boyeo

The performance was like the original PV started off with the sexy voice of Tabi and followed by GD, Tabi’s verse--GD’s verse. It was the same as the PV. Later, taking the mic was Bae and followed by Dae with an impressive verse; a fun part of the lyrics; a verse that people’d like to sing…………rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I shouted. VIPs went crazy!

I love you baby i’m not a monster Neon al-janha yejeon nae moseubeul shi-gani chinamyeon sarajyeo beoril tende keu ttaen al tende baby
I need you baby i’m not a monster Nal al-janha ireohke kajima neo majeo beorimyeon nan jugeobeoril tende i’m not a monster

Another verse that I’d like to sing it out loud----YOU DON’T SAY THAT TOMORROW!! Love it! Baby, nice job!!

Tee-o-pee during this performance changed his black glasses to his regular glasses. And this time he chose white colour. He was damn hottttttttttttttttt! I shouted his name again tee-o-pee. On the other hand, Having to watch Bae and Dae sang the song with enthusiastic way of singing just made all my tiredness, my sore throat just went away like nothing. They have a very lovely singing!!! Lovely voice. Both Bae and Dae. Yeah I still can sing!! I still remember I used all the voices that I have to sing the song. Ahahahha. Especially the Bae and Dae’s verse. It was so fun!! And believe it or not I also used my deep-voiced…using my vocal cords….stressed the consonants /d/ /g/… I really had so much fun!! We all did right? and this time my throat was seriously ill but that didn’t stop me to sing the next song..hahahaha The last part when Bong sang his final verse I think i’m sick i think i’m sick I think i’m sick i think i’m sick. The ‘not being loyal’ me shouted his name for second time…hahhhahahha I couldn’t control myself.. He was attractive!! Did I mention that there’s nothing of what he did not attractive? He’s good in that way. Credit him for that. Oh come on he’s a singer which also means entertainer. Of course he knows.. he has to! Ok maybe it was because I was influenced by sarangae who called his name two times too! :p why GD why??? Why do u want to attract me and taking me from Tabi..WHyyyyyyyyyyy? AHAHHAHHAHAHHHA after the song ended my throat was incredibly ill…I coughed 4 times.

After a short intermission..our boys were back again with ‘Feeling’

Bong: Woo woo wooo woo woo wooo
Bae: Malaysia, u all ready to party?
TOP: Party people
Bong: Yeah now. Big Bang together. Boys Noize in da house. Party people? (Bong was so happy asking the crowd----I can see he smiled!! OMG His smile????? Is everything!!!)

TOP: 1,2,3 Scream
Let’s move (back up singer?) here we go (Big Bang) Get loose (back up singer) ya’ll know (Big Bang)
We gon reach for the sky yup Party like our time’s up (back up singer + Big Bang)
Let’s move (back up singer) here we go (Big Bang) Get loose (back up singer) ya’ll know (Big Bang)
Throw your hand’s up in the air Jump on up like you don’t care (Big Bang)

Crazy as always…..yeah let’s keep this feelinggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!! Let’s party!!! Tabi with his white glasses….OMG I dunno what to say anymore…..I thank God for bringing this old Tabi!!! Did I mention young and fresh before.? Yeah that’s Tabi on this performance. Without changing anything---white glasses, long sleeve T’s, (damnnnnnnnnn sexy) red skinny jeans…ASDFGHJKL!!!!! Do not stop this feeling Tabi!!………that’s the song after all….

His rapping??? Do u guys remember the Tabi 3,4 years ago? That night was like 3,4 years ago..but of course much better!

Kkamppagineun golmok karodeung beon-cheokkeorineun bulbit hana dul Chinsukhan gipeun bam da neukkyeo ni-ga nu-gudeun Namye nun-chi bol pilyo-ga eom-neun seoul kkwahk chan bilding sup sok…………… 

tee o-pee…………………………. I shouted

Hwiihwahng-chanran han i bam modeun ge kangryeorhajiman do not close ur beautiful eyes Tabi!!!!!! U makes my heart broken. Did u guys remember? He did close his beautiful eyes during that verse. What else can I say????? I feel like jumping over him at that moment. I jump for joy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

It was a nice performance. The lighting Oh God!! It was blinking like u were in the disco. Music? Not really a hard core type of music but still U can party. I like that!! So I guess now u guys can tell why they put this track in the Alive Special Edition EP not the regular version one. 

Seeing our boys is all that matters!!! And Dae!!! I just realized He smiledddddddd during this performance. Oh yes, I forgot!!! there was also one part when GD put his left hand on Bae’s shoulder!! Oh be careful Bae, Tabi might get jealous..ahahhahahahaha 

and hey if u guys have a close look and focus on the performance u can also see the old Bae…. With his red vadana/ handkerchief that he put on his head…ring a bell? I like what he did for his hair. It suits him well. Our Captain was still with his manly skirt…….no comment cute as always!!! U can even watch his amazing move in this video by ryejahat@ youtube---thanks for sharing darl!

while singing this verse… Hey my baby i’m your daddy Lo-ong nan idaero ashwii-um namgin chaero (Translation of the verse: Hey my baby I’m your daddy Look, I can’t let you go with this reluctant feeling) he imitated like he was a crying baby…(touching his cute eyes). Sat down on the stage... Go check guys!! It was cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee!! See what he did for his legs? At 1:51 OMGGGGGGGGGGG. With his manly skirt…OMG…LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOO….So now am I to blame if I was impressed with his cuteness? Of course I shouted his name once during this cute movement…but I did shout tee-o-pee first.. I guess I was still in the right track.

And look at how crazy our captain was……at 3.09 

I’m crazy more than ever I’m crazy more than ever I’m crazy more than ever I’m crazy more than ever I’m crazy more than ever
 
He even made his usual sign………with his manly skirt……. OH CAPTAIN!!!! I’M CRAZY MORE THAN EVER SEEING U LIKE THAT!!!! Do u guys even remember in Big Show Big Bang Concert 2011 he let the fans touch his face….. during Koe o Kikasete performance?? I guess he can play because Bae, Dae and Baby did all the singing. Tabi and Bong did the fan service. GD let his fans touch his face..Tabi shook hands with VIPs….Ohhhhh I really wanted to go to their concert…so bad!!!! Let me remind u with the pic…..





Everybody scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Baby asked the crowd!!

Everybody claps ur hands …clap ur hands everybody!!!! Tabi said after that……
WHY CAPTAIN WHYYYYYYYYYYY? WHY do u want to steal me from my Tabi????? Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy? Ahahhahah

There was funny part when I heard my recording back…some VIPs even shouted GD’s name like someone who was irrational…unconscious…..high…..or even drunk….

GD!!!!!!! Ah……Ah… Ah…….GD……I can understand her feeling…..seriously….. the show was so hectic! GD was cute, pleasant that is impossible for anyone not to like him….

After almost 4 minutes intermission, our talented Bae came out with his two solo songs!! Both are my favourite. “Look only at Me”  and “Wedding Dress”. For those who have never been a fan of Bae; should start checking on him!! For Bae’s VIPs….Guys, U chose the right one; I didn’t mean that other VIPs chose the wrong one.! WHY SO SERIOUS? I mean seriously guys..after all this time I knew Bae for his song…I ONLY like his songs!!… Never been a fan of him---It’s like right now I like Justin Bieber’s song but not the individual JB…Nahhhhhhh not a fan!! After watching Bae’s performance, getting to know the individual Bae; how incredible his American slang when he speaks in English, how lovely his voice was; how cool he was when he acted professionally even he slipped during the performance (very badly); improvised and just continue singing…his dance???? I dunno how to describe it!! I’m willing to pay more just to listen to his solo performance…So his solo performance went like this…He opened it with ‘Look only at Me’….. Haruedo myeot beonssik neol bomyeo useo nan Su baek beon malhaetjanha you’re the love of my life Geojitdoen sesang sok buranhan nae mamsok Ojik na mitneun geon neo hana ppunirago

He only sang half of the song so it’s kind of sad,..I did shout his name of course three times; Sarangae did too.. That short performance was just like everything for me… His lovely voice?? OMG!!.I guess I really should go to their real concert for me to be able to listen full of the song…… and the meaning of the song; who’d be crazy enuff to cheat on Tae Yang??? Do u guys remember the song’s PV..It was like 4 years ago but I still remember----of the last part of the video when the whole cheating thing was just his dream----hahhhahahaha…He dreamed that his gf cheated on him with BONG, BABY, DAE and lastly Tabi… *Go check on it!!* one of my favourite PV! Go check cute, not serious Bae on the last part of PV when he was awake; looking at his GF and said hisyyyyy (in a cute way of expression..come on Bae? The brutal Bae?). hahahah sorry I was supposed to remind u about the concert but I keep reminding u of his PV…I can’t help… sorry guys… Ok let’s back to his solo performance that night,..hurm………I was so impressed by him.. he’s so cool..he slipped very badly…when he was so concentrate on his next song…….”Wedding Dress”

…………. jeoldae pijima babyyyyyyyyyyyy
………..non naman barabwa (The lyrics said even if I cheated on u, U only Look at Me..Hahhahhaha Bae, hell No)

I’ve never memorized the song but I guess I can sing quite well some of the verse…hahahahaah…. Did I mention that I like the song? 

Niga geuwa datugo
Ttaeron geu ttaeme ulgo
Himdeureo hal ttaemyeon nan huimangeul neukkigo
Amudo moreuge mam a-a-apeugo
Nijageun ,……. (Rightttttt this phrase!!! He slipped it out ) misomyeon tto damdamhaejigo

PITY BAE!!!!  Tae Yang I screamedddddddddddd---kenchana??? (are u ok in Korean)


WEDDING DRESS------
Oh Nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
Nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
Nega ibeun wedingdeureseu (VIPs favourite verse)

 It reminded me,..there was one time after he released the single; I updated my FB status with—“I think I fell for the wedding dress guy!” Ahhahhaha and my friend Ling asked me Tae Yang? Ehhhh hontou ni? (really in Japanese). Sometimes, u dun plan to like someone…don’t u? I like the song…the story behind it..oh what a melancholy!! It reminded me sometimes u’ve got to say what’s inside ur heart….people wouldn’t know if u dun say it..ok… Ok back to his performance,…His voice has no lack!! His expressions??,… The pain and heartache was written all over his face.. U dun have to know/ master Hanguk/ Korean language in order to understand what was the meaning of the song… or what he wanted to deliver during the performance…ok maybe I was just exaggerating a little but seriously.. U would know that it was a sad song... For VIPs who have followed his solo activity.. I mean who had his album or used to watch the PV and checked the lyrics with the translation will even more appreciate the song.. Oh.. My interest for him grew stronger after the concert….. because I like the song… I had all the wedding dress performances… I watched most of the performances… But that time, it’s not because of Bae himself but only because the song was nice…but today,.. at the moment I guess the song has taken all the NON-Tae Yang VIP to become Tae Yang VIP because of his voice too not the song alone… Even though the song is so depressing, I still like the performance, the song, the PV because they have Taeyang's gorgeous vocals and smooth dance moves. He put himself into ‘the guy’ shoes therefore he was able to convey the message…easily…. I could totally imagine him doing something like this in real life. I don't see how he expected the girl to recognize his real feelings when he never expressed them?.  I wish Taeyang could have told her the truth or at least give a hint; at least once. Nonetheless, I still love both the video and song. Of course I love his performance during the concert. I even hoped he would sing the whole song not just some part of that but as whole… Did u guys watch the PV before?? Did u guys remember the meaning of the song? I guess the arrangement of the songs during the concert was perfect….well, after u had party with the ‘Feeling’ and next U had to listen to a break-up love song… I'm not a real fan of melodramatic love stories but this song I instantly loved it. Compared to ‘I need a girl’ I’d chose this. This song is better.. The last part of his performance; I shouted his name again! :P the song is one of my all-time favourites. I can’t resist! Without second thought!

WINGS---- A Star Trek All His Own

Now, onto Dae. The best way for me to describe his performance is-----his musical was somewhat folksy, somewhat breathy, somewhat pleasant, catchy and the music sounds instantly classic! I like that!!! I’ve never seen Dae as goofy as the night… I WAS PLEASANTLY SURPRISED! He won me over. His goofy demeanour and commanding stage made him going solo looks easy. His vocals reminiscent of someone but I can’t remember it right now…. The VIPs were almost as entertaining as the performers on stage. The super-spirited Dae just taking all the VIPs vocals… Sarangae and I shouted Dae’s name once we heard the music… Some VIPs who were sitting in front of us screamed Dae Sung Dae Sung Dae Sung Dae Sung.. Actually the whole stadium did shout DAESUNG!!  just the same when we wanted Dae to tell us the secret… We followed them shouting. Hahha.. The sound of guitar or bass were all harmonized and the way he opened with the first verse of the lyric….. today….oneul…….. that were all nicely singing.. Did u guys realize that Dae did jump on the stage during the performance.??. He even said Malaysiaaaaa!!  Malaysia VIPs who were in high-spirited seems to enjoy helping Dae with ye iye ye iye ye iye. Seeing him jumping on the stage; yeahhhhhh that’s our Dae!! Super-spirited Dae let the audience thought that ‘This moment is my stage performance not Big Bang so I’m gonna giving it all out’……..I guess that what makes the performance was not awkward at all!! With ‘jumping’ Dae….. before he ended his performance made the crowd ecstatic!! That’s what we asked for, right?


하루하루
I've always wondered why anyone would pay 600 dollar for a concert ticket. But now I guess I have no doubt about it… ahahhaha

하루하루, written by the most talented leader in KPOP industry G-DRAGON, Composed by him and Daishi Dance; I know that they wouldn’t leave without doing the acoustic version of 하루하루 , one of the happier breakup songs you’re likely to hear and sing!!. I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! IT JUST REMINDED ME OF SIX YEARS AGO!!

And that time no one shined quite as brightly as Mr. TOP himself. I shouted tee-0-peeeeeeeeeeee three times during the performance. The way he did his part of the song was all charming to me that my heart tears into pieces for hundred times now. I really wanted to cry that time. Seeing him……. Seeing Big Bang in front of me was all fantastic and I swear I would never forget this moment. With Bae and Dae who have tremendous voice……..I have no words to describe that. Baby, was sweet as ever. Captain??? I hoped he would feel proud to have us as their fans! Needless to say, the diversity was dazzling: all ages, all races, and styles of dress…..all together singing their song!!! What a very beautiful song………. Captain, why are u so talented? So versatile? So perfect for us? WHYYYYYYY? And TOPPPPPPP DO U REALLY HAVE TO BE SO HANDSOMEEEEEEEEEEEE?

I was lucky enuff to be able to sing together with them and thousands of VIP during the concert. WE SANG MOST OF THE VERSE!!! And smilesssssss.? Of course I smiled a lottttttttttttttttttt.. For some, this was a first, a first Big Bang concert, a first time meeting and it was a night full of rewarding, warm feelings; a rush of lightning, a jolt of joy that produced streetlights from our lips. 

The first half was, among many things, modest. A warm on Big Bang’s faces reminded us that they've been touring this thing for a minute. I DUN WANT THEM TO LEAVE! But like a plane approaching lift off, they found a burst of energy as the show progressed. THEY ARE ONLY A HUMAN LIKE US!!! HARU HARU JINAMYEON!! I love that part!!

After giving everyone enough time to catch their breath; IT WAS OUR TURN to show our talent to the Captain and the whole members;’,……….. and this timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee MY HEART BURSTTTTTTTTTTT………. 

Captain G: U guys know the song right, ? Pls sing it for me now. Come on Malaysia Come on now..1,2,3 go
VIPs: Dorabojimalgo tteonagara
Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara (Captain G: Beautiful)
Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie
Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara
Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae
Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae
Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae
Haru haru
Mudyeojyeogane

I DIDN’T KNOW where all my confidence came from. I remember the lyrics… I sang quite well,….Haru Haru was a beautiful piece!! Singing the song during the concert was a worthwhile experience and WOW! FANTASTIC BABY!!!

The song was extremely beautiful and moving!!...I remember being there and the whole occasion bring the audience to tears…

After the song has ended; with the Captain G’s TQ…We sang H.A.P.P.Y B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y T.O.P Happy Birthday to u Happy Birthday to Happy Birthday to u; Bae who realized of what we were saying together with us wishing TOP, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!!!! We kind of a little impatient as we almost ignore Captain’s talking……

Seeing TOP who cried on the stage I screamed tee-o-peeeeeeeeeeeeeee three times..I even shouted TOP, SARANGAE!! SENGEIL CHUKKA YO!!

Bae: TOP HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Baby: We love u TOP
Tabi: Sengeil chukka ye…TERIMA KASHIH KAMSAHAMIDA
Bong: Another show we heading to the end..but it’s not over yet. Do U want more right? WE want some more too. We had such a great time in here. TQ MALAYSIA. TQ
Uhuuuuuuuuuu GD I shouted!

Bae: How are u guys doing so far? U guys have fun? We had fantastic time. TQ FOR SUCH A MEMORABLE TIME I hope u guys still supporting us even though it’s time to say goodbye. We promise that we’r gonna be here very soon. I love Malaysia

Bong: Ok This is our first night in Malaysia. We will never forget tonight. Wo ho absolutely amazing u guys…wonderful..really. everyday everynight we have numbers of show but u guys are the best. All the board, posters, photos..I wanna say that more..so.I wanna say TQ..

I shouted GDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD two times

Tabi: I’m very excited to be with u guys. Tonight is all for u!! TQ Malaysia. U are amazing crowd. I remember every single faces; please take care till the day we meet again. TQ so much! (MY HEARTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT BREAKS)

Tee-o-peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I shouted.. cannot count how many this time

Baby: TQ for all coming to us. Big time. I love this place. U ARE THE BEST CROWD EVER! I knew that u guys will be there for us even though this raining. So, Thank you so much. I love u Malaysia. 

Dae: I love that..I’m so happy to visit all of u guys. all around the world We will try for u guys. Also I will there for u guys. Tq for supporting us. We love u

Bae: yo We love u Malaysia. We hope u guys enjoy the show till the end

Bong: So Big Bang Galaxy Tour 2012 is now time to say goodbye so..

JUST WHEN PEOPLE ASSUMED THE SHOW HAS ENDED BAE SHOUTED…..

Bae: it’s called Lie
After a brief talk……………

Bae: put ur hands in the air, throw ur hands up in the air 3 times

Baby: Pls sing it together

거짓말………………………………………
Although this composer is still young, he has produced many quality pieces of music. 거짓말 will always be my all-time favourite song like 하루하루 too!!! The show was stolen by the vibrant and colourful music, giving the concert an extra boost. I didn’t know where the lyrics came from my mouth that night…. I can sing the song..OMG… Baby who liked to interact with the audience let the fans sing it together with them.. It was a great opportunity!!

I’m so sorry but I love you da geo-jis-mar
I-ya mor-rass-eo i-je-ya ar-ass-eo ne-ga pir-yo-hae
I’m so sorry but I love you nar-ka-ro-un mar
Hwas-gim-e na-do mo-reu-ge neor tteo-na-bo-naess-ji-man
I’m so sorry but I love you da geo-jis-mar

Tee-o-peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I screamed………………
Nan honja geu amudo amudo mollae………

After finished his line He did ‘his sarangae’ by putting both of his hands on the head as the love symbol/ shape can be seen the whole crowd. My sweetest guy ever.!! With his strange hat on his head…. None of that matters!! He’s superrrrrrrrrrr handsomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! And so cooooooooooollllllllllllllllllllllll !! I LIKE BOTH NEW and OLD TOP……!!!

The melody of the song set the energetic mood for a party from the beginning till the end…it was so fun…we were like flying to the moon…and we didn’t care about others.as we just wanted to have fun..As the passion of the song heated up, with all the instruments were in accompaniment …..VIPs…through times since melody takes them far away, in a secret place where dreams and reality meets. I was amazed with Tabi’s rapping as always… tee-o-peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I shouted… 3 TIMES I GUESS this time

Hor-ro nam-gyeo-jin oe-tor-i
Geu sog-e he-me-neun nae kkor-i
Ju-meo-ni sog-e kko-gis-kko-gis
Jeob-eo-dun i-byeor-eur hyang-han jjog-ji (hey)

This lines..his lines connect on every part of my body!!!! I COULDN’T CONTROL MYSELF ANYMORE THIS TIME!! OH GOD HOW I LOVE THIS GUY SO MUCH!!  The notion of being a rapper is more a matter of on-stage attitude, I think: TOP’s roots amazing way of rapping is an evident why he did win award before he entered YG. That time his stage name was Tempo…. Yeah he really knows how to tempt the audiences. I even moved my hand like this.. when he said his lines… he used to spin his hands like the pic below… I did that with my crown stick…hahahhahaha

And btw, TOP made cooperation with Dae…Bong with Bae….four of them danced together.. it really set the mood and made the audience were like jumping into the sky!! U guys know the dance of this song right??
And the song set the unity themes that one can hardly hear in any other genre of music nowadays…. I mean in other KPOP songs…..

 Yeah (love is pain) dedicated to all my broken hearted people…

I was wondering why our Captain liked to write the sad songs…. And btw, I saw Captain’s smile again this time…..so cuteeeeeeeeee!!

The guitar took a major role in this song. There was a part where I felt like I was at the end of a long journey and feeling the sadness because of its ending. The performance was almost at the end stage. However as the movement reached its end, the music became faster and therefore a bit more natural rather than depressed. This transition made me feel like I was kind of happy for finishing my journey. Big bang was able to deliver an unforgettable performance/ memory as they promised…to be cherished by their fans for a long time to come!!! I’M SO SORRY BUT I LOVE U TOP!!

Baby: Are you ready?
TOP: Are u ready?
Bong: Malaysia, make some noise….
Yes! Big Bang is back! Haha!
Most definitely, incredible! Hey move!
B to the I to the G (Bang Bang)
B to the I to the G (Bang Bang)
B to the I to the G (Bang Bang)
About love!
Bong: Let me hear u say yeah, say yeah

Last Farewell was next!! One of my favourite songs from Big Bang. They gracefully hooked into the engaging pop+ hip hop percussiveness of their song that had a nearly obsolete amount of drum hardware attached to it this time.

There’s something to be said for the power of unbridled (good way), incredible enthusiasm, of which Big Bang has no shortage. .I spent the first few second relentlessly to this upbeat song wondering how long Big Bang could keep this performance up and keep the VIPs high… and I was amazed our boys did until the end!! THAT’S FOR SURE… BIG BANG IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah that’s all I wanted to hear!!!

When GD was doing his lines, I screamed GDDDDDDD.. Sarangae did too. That was the first time I saw enthusiastic Sarangae towards GD!! She shouted GD’s name from time to time…


[GD] Miromirosoge gachin gil ireun bangnangjamanyang idojeodo motae nan manyang…………….

I don’t wanna be without you girl majimak insaneun jeobeodugil barae
Oneul dan harumankeumeun I don’t wanna be without you girl nae seotun maeum

I saw most of the members smiled more during the performance…. And the dance part..ahhahaha they were so cute.. TOP was cuteeeeeee with his dance… OH TOP!! Since he is one of the coolest guy that I know… it was amazing seeing him doing that!! Last Farewell is a must-know song…. For VIPs… I guess…. same as Lie and Haru Haru….. Because of Lie, most people got to know about Big Bang! The lyric was beautiful too.!! And Haru Haru..the song is like an epic!!! It was hard to not like the song!!! During the performance, I became more sad as the have-to-say-goodbye thing was so quick.. I told Sarangae that I STILL WANTED MORE!! I haven’t prepared to say goodbye just yet. I haven’t satisfied with their performance; I wanted to listen more. I still want to sing.!! But, all the stories in the world have its end…right? So did the meeting thing, the concert… That’s the reality of it.. the certainty of it… 

Bae ended with……..
Bae: Malaysia bagus! I love u Malaysia……
The crowd kept shouting for an encore! Encore encore encore encore, we want more we want more…. Sarangae and I helped one of the Chinese VIP who was standing in front of us…she was so soft---shouting encore encore..hahhahaha…not like us who was so enthusiastic and because of that we almost lose our voice that night…

After a brief intermission 

24/7----BIG BANG is like my ‘Heaven’…. TOP is my MUSE!!!

Bae: Can we get an encore. Do u want more U guys ready? yeah ready?
VIPs: yeah
Bae: Ok let’s go

It’s suck to say that this is also one of my favourites song from Big Bang. (the fact that I like all of their songs!! Hehhe ) Some VIPs might like the Japanese version of it but as for me; I like the Korean one!!!!!!!!!!! 

24/7 geudaen yeongwonhan HEAVEN
24/7 geudaen namanui HEAVEN
24/7 geudaen yeongwonhan HEAVEN
24/7 HEAVEN LET’S GO

Majimak il jul aratdeon dubeon dasi an ol jul aratdeon……………

GD started his lines with an ecstatic way make me shout his name GDDDDDDDD. And when they were all singing these lines…..
Neoreul saranghae (MY LOVE LOVE)
Neoreul bureune (OH MY LOVE LOVE)
Neoreul gieokhae (MY LOVE LOVE)
Neoreul gidarine (YO MY LOVE)
Geudaeui mal hanmadi
Saranghandaneun geu hanmadi
Neoreul saranghae (OH MY LOVE LOVE)
Neoreul gieokhae (neoui jeonbureul gieokhae)….

I was hoping that I had more space to dance..the only dance that I really like from Big Bang was from this song…. After the first chorus…
TOP shouted to the crowd I love u guys…. Insanely, I screamed I love u too……. TOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and Bae screamed Malaysia, AKU CINTA PADAMU….

Our boys did some changes compared to their regular performances…Baby sang his verse in different kind of way and it was interesting so did Bae!! I like that!! I guess it was because of the keyboard?…. It was different but seriously!! I like this version!! And TOP has thrown his shirt to the VIPs!! Who’s the lucky girl…oh nooooooooooooooo…. I’m so pathetic!! I hate to think about it!

There was also short intermission for them to address to the audience all their team members that include dancers, guitar, trump, bass, keyboard, chorus,

And Bae still has time to introduce himself… remember me tae yang number one

Bae: Malaysia bagus, aku cinta padamu Malaysia a….ku cinta padamu… a….ku cinta padamu Bae kept doing his rapping and concluded with tq love u…Malaysia cantik…..
Baby: thank you
Tabi: can we give it up for encore do u want more?
VIPs: hell. yes
Bae: yes we can’t let u go like this. I’ll do my best. Let’s go bad boy one more
BAD BOY
Bae: yeah put ur hands up

During the encore, it was the saddest moment for us…encore means goodbye….
I shouted tee-o-peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

During this moment, Bae went near the audience makes the crowd gone crazy!! And TOP thrown away his official Big Bang sweater was superrrrrrrrrrrrrrr superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr handsomeeeeeeeeeeeeee… I couldn’t describe it!! He has taken my heart away..!!! there was one time I had this thought….. I wanna go run to the stage and say to him TOP rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr U make me hottttttt!!!
Bae did end the song with I’m a bad boy..i’m such a bad boy…he made his own version and it was so good!!

FANTASTIC BABY
Baby: Malaysia, do u remember Fantastic Baby dance?
VIPs were singing the song until the very end..the encore version was different with the previous performance. TOP gave all of his energy towards the song so did other members!! VIPs were all so excited!! Boom shakalaka….
The best part of course..the lines from our leader…
Bong: Da gachi nolja
TOP ft VIPs: ye ye ye
Bong: da gachi ttwija
TOP ft VIPs: ye ye ye
Bong: Da gachi dolja
TOP ft VIPs: ye ye ye
Bong: da gachi gaja
TOP ft VIPs: wow! fantastic baby

Baby: TQ MALAYSIA
Dae: Selamat tidur (goodnight)
I dun want this to end
Bong: what do u want? U guys are so special so we gonna do one more song. What do u guys want?  I think Hands up?

 I shouted for Lie, the group of guy behind me asked for Crayon……..Most of the crowd shouted for Crayon….

All the songs were ignored by Captain and he chose Hands up…yikes….But still, I did sing the song….even I was so sadddddddddddddddd to say goodbyeeeee

HANDS UP

We are the world hello to the world …………….
Boom boom pow let’s work it let’s work it now!!! TOP’s verse..I’m gonna miss that. I’m gonna miss singing that!! TOP was so energetic..seeing all that makes me even sad….sad to be apart from him..hahhaha… and btw, there was a time Captain gave flying kiss to the crowd..auwwwwww so sweet GD!!! And he kept vow to the audience…OMG GD!! With his sexy voice he said bye bye…
At the end of the song Baby said TQ………….everybody..

Dae added it with We love u Malaysia.
TOP: Annyeong
But it didn’t end just like that!!! The most memorable encore was TOP’s dance
Bae: drop the beat …drop the beat now
Bong: ah ah ah ah his birthday…birthday birthday. happy birthdayyyy birth..birth day

And TOPpppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp danced his BINGU TOP………OMG IT WASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SEXYYYYYYYYYYYY that makes me even want to kiss him right now..WHY TOP whyyyyy why do u have to make that sexyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy move??? Whyyyy so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I was not myself at the moment

Then, another surprise was…Baeeeeeeeeeeee….he put his shirt off….OMG..I think he forgot that he couldn’t do that!! Catch the performance here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DhXs2ofalG8 tq jeanetterr for sharing!!

Bong ft TOP: tae tae tae tae
TOP:tae teddy tae teddy

WE HAD SO MUCH FUN!!! I WOULD NEVER FORGET THE REST OF MY LIFE!! IT WAS A MAGICAL NIGHT!! 

The show ended after almost two and half hours. We were in such a great mood that we forgot about all the tiredness, the raining,… what was left was a great show with no pretence, lots of positive feelings and sweat for the audience, a night at Stadium Merdeka with Big Bang to cherish and remember forever!! And I guess after all , TOP is always my biased when I counted the times that I have shouted his name during the concert and how deeply he has taken my heart away and break it into pieces…I was so amazed with his rapping, with his handsomeness, with his down-to earth..he was always the same—the guy that I fell 6 years ago..and the concert taught me to recognize other members too..!! I became to appreciate other members too!! BONG, BAE, DAE & BABY…..They were all amazing too…. TOP? Do u even have to ask?

Bae: Love u from the bottom of the heart

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I would like to take this opportunity to thank my beloved friend Sarangae. I guess we had so much fun that day, right? I want to thank Bernard Hah too for all his performances recording… It just reminds me all the memories! And most importantly, VIPs….thank you for making it so memorable; being professional despite the intermittent drizzle- and to sing with our boys until the very end—a thoroughly satisfying!! Last but not least I would like to thank BIG BANG for an amazing performance!!!! WE LOVE U GUYS UNTIL WHENEVER!!! and TOP HAPPY 26 BIRTHDAY. I LOVE U WITH ALL MY HEART!!!!



BIG BANG VIP UNTIL WHENEVER---TOP VIP UNTIL MY LAST BREATH
TNKK.MirJH